Tonight I will be sitting with friends and family around a beautifully set table. It is my first holiday without you.
I will be surrounded by music and laughter, by friends and loving people. You will not be there to wish me a happy holiday, to hug me, to kiss me, to give me a flower.
Tonight I will offer the performance of a great actress. I will smile, sing, dance and pretend being merry.
Inside I will bleed.
A festivity without you is no happy day at all. It is the absolute oxymoron.
I will not disappoint my friends and loved ones; I will smile and make believe I am happy.
Inside I will bleed.
Nobody will know.
Anna Maria
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Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Monday, April 6, 2009
Loving you
You were sad, looked sad and lost. I wanted to share your sadness, take it away from you. I wanted to banish sadness from your heart and didn’t mind taking it with me.
I wanted to see you happy.
Happiness can be shared with many. Sadness can only be shared with those who love you.
I love you. I didn’t choose to love you, it just happened.
It is inevitable, nothing you can do about it, love chooses you and you can’t choose who to love. Cupid’s arrows are invisible.
I fell for you hook, line and sinker and the best I could do was accept the mystery of it all. I knew you were not by my side to stay. I hoped I could make you smile and even laugh before it was over.
The day came and it was over and I just had to let go and be thankful for the joy you brought into my life.
If you loved, you have been alive. I was and am alive and thank Heaven for warming my soul with the wonderful gift of love.
Anna Maria
I wanted to see you happy.
Happiness can be shared with many. Sadness can only be shared with those who love you.
I love you. I didn’t choose to love you, it just happened.
It is inevitable, nothing you can do about it, love chooses you and you can’t choose who to love. Cupid’s arrows are invisible.
I fell for you hook, line and sinker and the best I could do was accept the mystery of it all. I knew you were not by my side to stay. I hoped I could make you smile and even laugh before it was over.
The day came and it was over and I just had to let go and be thankful for the joy you brought into my life.
If you loved, you have been alive. I was and am alive and thank Heaven for warming my soul with the wonderful gift of love.
Anna Maria
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Second zero of day one
You can never be sure of anything in your life. Today you may have it, tomorrow it isn’t there anymore.
This is the time when you have to develop a strategy: how to do without.
The most difficult is how to do without somebody you love. They left and you are left there, standing, looking into thin air and not knowing where to go from there.
Well my friend, take a deep breath and tell yourself this is second zero of day one and start from there.
If you already lost something forever and you know you can’t have it again, it will not come back, don’t cry.
Please don’t cry. Square your shoulders raise your head and remind yourself of the great person you are. Take out from your insides all the good qualities you have, look at them and think of all the good you can do with these.
Go on with your life.
Second zero from day one.
Start.
Go!
Anna Maria
This is the time when you have to develop a strategy: how to do without.
The most difficult is how to do without somebody you love. They left and you are left there, standing, looking into thin air and not knowing where to go from there.
Well my friend, take a deep breath and tell yourself this is second zero of day one and start from there.
If you already lost something forever and you know you can’t have it again, it will not come back, don’t cry.
Please don’t cry. Square your shoulders raise your head and remind yourself of the great person you are. Take out from your insides all the good qualities you have, look at them and think of all the good you can do with these.
Go on with your life.
Second zero from day one.
Start.
Go!
Anna Maria
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