SEASONS AND YOU

Old Autumn golden crown is showing its rays
Tints of spring are coming in with joy
For shelter or for shade the trees
Spread their green

Sunny and fragrant air
Bathes the morning dew

The beauty and the power of the seasons shine
In a close embrace

Summer golden pride is close
Its powerful perfumed breath feels near

Melodies of morning
I sang for you
Now I can’t hear your steps at my door
Time and life have moved on forgetting me behind.

Anna Maria

MORNING MIST AND SUNSHINE

Morning mist and sunshine
A beam of the sun
The murmur of the waves
Ages of moonlight
Over the calm ocean

I am the barren land
Waiting for your rain
Swaying in the wind
Hoping for magical moons
To shine

Through night and storm
Through starless and cold
Beams of life
Passion burns the stars
And keeps me alive

Anna Maria

SWEET DREAMS OF LOVE

Whispering love songs I embrace the moon
The stillness and silence of your hands on my face
Cupping my cheeks to hold my tears
Their feathery touch makes my blood sing.

Days of silence, days of waiting and feeling empty
Your touch is the beginning of a fiery emotion and gives way
to tears of joy.

Sweet dreams of love

Anna Maria

A MELODY OF LOVE

A melody may teach a lover where love is.
Silver dressed in the moonlight, bathed by heaven and the evening star
a melody of gold tangling your hair
like a clamor of love caught in a song.

Our voices in the wind, air shapes the sound
of all the moons and suns of the days we were in love.
A tide of feelings and awe and wonder swells inside me.
The awe and wonder of true love.

Anna Maria

Your thorny lack of love

I want to carry you from the valley to the peak of the mountain and show you what lies in that valley.
Buried under the trees and the waters of the stream the shards of my heart can be found.
You broke it, you with your thorny lack of love, your tender make believe smile.

For you I wanted to wake up the sun and hug the moon.
For you I wanted a blue noonday, cool and luminous, to offer you a place of slumber guarded by my love.

When you left you took such a big part off me that you took me apart. Ashes were left, ashes of loss being held in my body, in my cells, in my spirit.

Gone are the tender words whispered in semi sleep.
I was, I existed to hear your voice, to feel your hands.

I do not fondle my weakness, it is inside me, it is just love.

Anna Maria

Dancing for you

When life is sad I dance. The drums and string instruments quiet my spirit and give wings to my feet, thunder and lightening.

When the beat is strong I immerse myself in it and do not think of you.
The dancing heals my wounds; I dance to heal my wounds but would like to dance for you who caused them.

Dancing into fountains of light I pretend I dance for you. Sway and sway again, wantonly desiring I dance for your shadow.

I dance through time and feelings. You beat to a rhythm that isn’t mine.
Peace is achieved through the song and dance; I can dance out my feelings.

As in the words of Leonard Cohen: “…..dance me to the end of love”

Anna Maria

Anna dances

With her manacles unclasped Anna dances her soaring pain away.
Anna dances and the cuts in her soul begin to heal.

To the beat of the drums and in bare feet she lets the pain flow to the rhythm. The stomping of her feet stomps the pain.
Anna dances and the rainbow appears in the sky.

The drums and marimbas sound together and Anna dances his holding hands that are no more. She stomps her feet in rage and dance.

He will be exorcised, banned from her soul by music and dancing.

Anna Maria

Tonight

Tonight I will be sitting with friends and family around a beautifully set table. It is my first holiday without you.

I will be surrounded by music and laughter, by friends and loving people. You will not be there to wish me a happy holiday, to hug me, to kiss me, to give me a flower.

Tonight I will offer the performance of a great actress. I will smile, sing, dance and pretend being merry.
Inside I will bleed.

A festivity without you is no happy day at all. It is the absolute oxymoron.
I will not disappoint my friends and loved ones; I will smile and make believe I am happy.
Inside I will bleed.

Nobody will know.

Anna Maria

Loving you

You were sad, looked sad and lost. I wanted to share your sadness, take it away from you. I wanted to banish sadness from your heart and didn’t mind taking it with me.
I wanted to see you happy.
Happiness can be shared with many. Sadness can only be shared with those who love you.

I love you. I didn’t choose to love you, it just happened.
It is inevitable, nothing you can do about it, love chooses you and you can’t choose who to love. Cupid’s arrows are invisible.

I fell for you hook, line and sinker and the best I could do was accept the mystery of it all. I knew you were not by my side to stay. I hoped I could make you smile and even laugh before it was over.

The day came and it was over and I just had to let go and be thankful for the joy you brought into my life.
If you loved, you have been alive. I was and am alive and thank Heaven for warming my soul with the wonderful gift of love.

Anna Maria

We met too late

We met late, too late. By then you wore the scars of failed love and fear of loving kept knocking at your heart.
We were not meant to be and it happened, we drifted apart.

It’s hard to let go because I love you. I know you were never mine but all the same my heart broke when we said goodbye.

There was no battle I could fight, no enemy to bring to its knees. Nothing I could do because you couldn’t love me.

When we parted, I smiled at you because I wanted you to take that smile with you.
My last smile for a long time.

I tried to give you my heart but you refused to take it and now my soul misses the little pieces of you.

Anna Maria

Treasure every moment

Today is called the present because that is exactly what it is – a present life gives us.
It should be treasured, every single moment of it. Life and time wait for no one; it will not wait for you.
Tomorrow is just a maybe; nobody knows what it will bring and yesterday is already over.
Treasure the present, the today, the now and whatever brings tomorrow that will be the present.
If you can live your present, your gift, loving somebody then it does not matter what tomorrow brings.
Live and love.

Anna Maria

I was thinking you

I was thinking you and suddenly understood why there are flowing rivers: so our love will flow in their streams, sometimes a calm and easy flow, sometimes raging waters.

If so, who thought first of words like goodbyes and the many names of its pains?
Who took away the horizon and the tomorrow?

Who invented the misunderstandings, the silences, the wrong words said without intention?

The past keeps coming back and with it the pains and the smiles, the feeling of your caressing hands, the sound of your voice saying goodbye.

I will keep on loving you in every written word, in every note of a song, in every cloud and in every remembered kiss.

Anna Maria